An Apology

 An Apology….

This will be my last apology that I will make to you J. 

In the past couple weeks, I have been apologizing for a lot of things to you.     But I realize that I should never have had to apologize for who and what I am.    I should not have apologized for the things I did and didn't do.   I should have never forgiven you for going to him so quickly.   

I don’t need your forgiveness.   

However, that being said, I do owe you ONE apology.

When you told me that you were wanting to end things months before…. I took it hard.   Wow did I take it hard.     It made me feel absolutely worthless and it made the last year and a half a lie.     Don’t get me wrong.   I still feel that way.

But I am Sorry

I am sorry for the things I said in that other group.    I was so sad, hurt, and angry.     It was childish of me.    It was pretentious of me.    When I realized what I was doing I deleted the posts and left the group.

Should you ever read this….. I mean it when I say:

I’m so sorry for that J

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