The Hardest Part

When a relaship ends, it's always best to give space and distance, isn't it?

Some people live across town from one another
Some people have a city separating them
Some people even have a state(s) separating them 

I don't have that luxury.   She is my next door neighbor.   When I go out on my deck, the house she lives in is literally RIGHT THERE.

So every time I go on my deck, look out my window, I get a reminder and the wounds open all over.

So every time I go on my deck, and her little boy comes over to say "wut doin" I will get that reminder.

I wish she didn't live so close to me.

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