The Hypocrisy and the Biggest WTF moment

Like Ross and Rachel from the TV show Friends….

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So when I did want to take a step back, “take a break”, was to try and motivate  to get her ass in gear.   I never wanted to break up with her.   You see,  I’m genuinely concerned about her and her two kids.   If something happens to the person she lives with, she and her boys will have zero money and no roof over their heads!   

Well this is what happened and how it epically blew up in my face:

Number 1:

Nothing happened on her end, no progress was made.   I made the decision.   It was so damn difficult as I truly love her with all of my heart and soul.

Number 2.     

Her Reaction:   In Less than 48 hours she made contact with another guy, agreed to meet, fucked, and is now in a “pseudo” relationship with him.

I felt betrayed, I am devastated, (Later I learn that she took this as not a break but a break up, whatever).

Hypocrisy Moment #1: 

She Said to me:   “Don’t pull a Ross!”  (context:   Remember the episode when Rachel wanted to take a Break from Ross and Ross went out and slept with someone?) 

Over the week she would send me messages about “well I see you’re moving on” and getting upset at me for leaving comments on other member’s pictures and posts.    Not once did I ever exchange phone numbers, contact information or express any desire to anyone to be with them.   All the while, number 2, was happening on her end.

Hypocrisy Moment #2:

I had made a post on social media about how I felt the last year and half was a complete waste of time.

She got incredibly butt hurt, screamed at me for saying how much that hurt her.   Yelled at me for how much it means to feel like her life is wasted and not being needed.   Seriously lady?    Take your feelings and shove them up your ass.   

You want to know why I feel like the last year and a half was wasted?   Look in the mirror!  (or… just see number 2 above).  How easy was it for you to move on and throw it all away.

Hyprocrisy Moment #3:

We were discussing why I didn’t like to go to her home town.   I told her that I didn’t feel comfortable about being around someone who had made some remarks about Asians.    I said, you have no idea what it looks like to be judged by the color of your skin.

She said she does!  She hates it, she hates being stared at by men.   She hates being objectified, she hates how men only see her as one thing.

Okay, I get that, but then how come you post nudes on an open forum and selling your content?

The Biggest What the Fuck Moment

She told me:  For months part of her has been wanting to break up with me.  She just couldn’t do it.    This was even during the time I drove her out to Colorado with me to meet my dad for the first time.  SERIOUSLY?!   Grow a set of balls and just tell me.